The Birth of I AM AIYANA
9 moons pregnant
I’ve always been a smelly gal, the kind that finds herself instantly transported to a place, a feeling, a memory or person just with the gentle breeze of a scent. With the sad but very necessary death of all my endocrine disrupting perfumes a few years ago I found myself deep in the world of essential oils, body oils and ‘natural’ perfumes.
That’s when I stumbled upon blue lotus, a smell that instantly sent me into the clouds whilst simultaneously landing me deeply in my body. I made a body oil with blue lotus from a local supplier and used it sparingly, like gold.
When it was finished life happened and I didn’t have the time to make another one. I always sent my boyfriend rummaging thigh high in creeks and ponds whenever we drove by and spotted their gorgeous iridescent blue petals poking out the water though.
Then I fell pregnant, and 10 moons later postpartum came knocking. In a season of life that should have had me so connected to my body, I felt like a stranger to it. Between sleepless nights with a newborn and zero time for myself my relationship to my body was forgotten and my body didn’t feel like mine anymore. I was simply a milk making machine.
That was, until 3 months postpartum when I started reflecting on what helped anchor me into my body. Blue lotus instantly came to mind as I reflected on how magnetic, euphoric and just ‘me’ I felt whenever I inhaled it. It brought me home to myself.
And so with that little spark of a memory the idea started brewing …and here we are. Through the birth of Florence Aiyana, my daughter, came the birth of Aiyana. A name that means forever blooming, perfectly matched to an oil inspired to bring you back into your body through its many seasons of life.